Monday, January 26, 2015

'An Owe To Myself'

'I still got sand in my shoes, and I can't seem to shake the thought of you'
Infatuated, hunted by the moments we once shared, I can't seem to remember to forget you.
As the days pass by, your face slowly fades away, but your presence somehow still remains.

I found myself caught up in the thought of 'what if', wondering what went wrong why you went away. The fear of facing a warm embrace, reflected on your words in denial, your long overdue distance and empty space. You hold on to your pain, in your walls it still remains; reminding yourself not to go through that again; it blinds you from those who may have still remained.

Letting go of your past, is the hardest part in this case. But though distance in time you will find what others couldn't give you and appreciate what you couldn't see and embrace.
In your eyes I could see the doubt the fear of getting hurt again.
Self defensive, regretful and overly careful.
Boy oh boy, if only if only we could have known, how to get lost in each other's warm embrace.

No attachment, that is what we misplaced as our emotions took over and the inevitable made us this way. The thoughts of what ifs will forever remain.
It was a pleasure to have met you, your memory never in disgrace and the lessons your tough me this way, I can never repay.
Thank you for making my skin a little bit thicker, myself a little but wiser. You made me stronger.
Therefore, I owe to myself to never regret, to not take back steps and to always look back at you as as a lesson I'll never forget.